Five Thoughts on a Saturday Night

Thought #1

I thought we had a shot at this but I was wrong.  I was led to believe that something special could actually happen between us but again, I was wrong.  Now, I am confused.  I don’t know what to do.  Most of the time I’d take flight instead of fight but I don’t know what’s going on inside my tiny brain that somehow I am choosing the latter option.  Ughhh, I don’t like this.  Seriously.  I have been doing a great job guarding myself from all the dramas in the world yet here I am immersed in this drama with you.  Ggrrr…This has to stop.  I should follow my mind over my heart this time.  It’s all about proper mindset.

Thought #2

After lunch, I directly went home to change my cute dress to something not really cute and lacy.  While passing through the guardhouse, I cheerfully handed the cooked mama-I-saved-for-snacks-after-church from the cafeteria to the guard.  He gladly received my gift and as I smiled at him my eyes caught something familiar inside the guardhouse.  I looked closer and  realized it looked similar to the boxes I received from Korea a couple of months ago.  I went in and read the label.  Wow! The box was for me! I quickly opened and checked if I had those books/tumblers/shoes I’ve been looking for.  Scanning through all those stuff brought back good old memories of Korea.  Ha! A friend borrowed one of my favorite books already! It’s about a man who decided to read his entire encyclopedia collection.  It was one of the best books ever!

Thought #3

Philippines lost against Thailand in AFF Suzuki Cup.  The score was 2-1.  Sigh.  I am definitely getting a good teasing from my students on Monday.  Good luck, Ms. Shiela!

 

Thought #4

I have too many appointments lined up this December.  I don’t even know which to prioritize first.  Practice here. Practice there. Practice everywhere.  When did I exactly begin to be a musician? Last time I check I was only about planning and coordinating now I am also performing! God bless to all music ministries at church and in other churches around the world.

Thought #5

Well, I am off to bed.  🙂 Till we meet again, WP. God bless!

Jesus is my ultimate superhero. #fromthesermonatchurchtoday

Getting Ready for Zia

Hola! I am already in bed! This is the earliest by far! I’m so proud of myself. I may not have “exercised” but I think going to Big C and buying stuffs for my coming baby Zia is already a form of exercise. I walked around for about an hour or so. I am not trying to justify my act here, ok?:)

Well, we just had our evening worship. We studied about the baptism of the Holy Spirit and resurrection in Christ. It was wonderful to be reminded once again that there’s more after our lives here on earth. I can’t wait for Jesus to come and take us to that heavenly home He’s prepared for us.

I decided to just give up on this something special that made my heart fluttet for a couple of months. I think it is best this way. I hope “it’s” too good to pass up but what can I do? I just have so many things on my plate right now. Que sera sera.

Sleeping now…tomorrow is going to be another busy day again.

God bless and take care!

x

P.S. Some of my colleagues commended me for my speaking appointment today and yesterday. I praise and thank God for giving me the courage and talent to speak before His will.

Yesterday, we celebrated Kaosuk’s birthday. We had fun! I so love my homeroom!:) Thank you, Lord!

아이 암 파트!

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Ggggrrr…I can’t believe I am already paying the price of eating out–eating out so much that is! Honestly, I am not pleased about this.  I just finished my 30-minute workout and instead of feeling satisfied of the calories I hope I burnt somehow, I am actually feeling angry.  I am angry because I have let myself grow wider.  I neglected my responsibility of watching my diet.  Ughhh! What’s wrong with me? Can’t I just be meticulous with food just as I am meticulous with work? My head is spinning round and round that I think I am developing a headache due to this anger burning inside my heart.  Oh Shiela, you have to exercise religiously!

Dear WordPress,

Can I just write more tomorrow? I am not really happy.:-( I have to hit the hay now! Thanks!

God bless,

Shiela

Prayer today: Dear God, please help me make wise decisions in life.  Help me to pay more attention to my diet and exercise.  Help me to stop splurging on food.  In Jesus name, Amen.

Daunting Realities

March 3rd, 2009

These past few days have been really crazy.  Just when I thought I was beginning to be “normal”,  things would abruptly happen and boom! “I’m back to my old self.” I’m starting to think that some things are for me.  Yesterday afternoon, I found myself pouring my heart out to a dear colleague/friend.  I couldn’t help but shed tears brought about by daunting realities–realities I was afraid to accept.

What do I do? What can I do?

April 18th, 2011

Who said going to a different place and starting a new life is easy?

Who said that after you left everything is going to stay the same when you come back?

This year I’ve learned valuable lessons in life the hard way.

I was always I thought…I thought…I thought.

What I forgot to think is that things don’t stay the same nor things stay the way you want them to.

Few years back I was very excited to finish school.  I was very excited to go and soar high above the clouds.  But then all along the while I did not realize that flying was never going to be easy.

Anyway, I don’t exactly know what to do right now.  It’s just that I haven’t been reading nor writing in its truest sense.  I have been busy getting to know this special someone in my life right now.  I know it sounds cheesy but what do I do? I think it’s about time to open my heart and let someone in other than my family and trusted friends.

So yeah, that’s what has been going on.  Plus, I’ve been sort of serious with my cello lessons that I can’t actually make up any reasonable excuse just to ditch that class.  I have learned to really enjoy each session with my Korean teacher. I know she does some pure-straight-in-Korean talking once in a while or sometimes more than once. 🙂 Honestly, I don’t understand everything she says but I just nod and try to pick up some words and understand her.

Oh, I don’t have travel plans yet except for that scheduled Palawan trip with my new boyfriend.  I wish we’d just go to Bohol instead.  But he wants to go to Palawan.  What can I do? I heard it’s a beautiful place so I might just as well go since we already have the tickets ready couple of months ago.

Anyway,  I think I’m developing a headache. I better go and take a warm shower so I can read a chapter of Steps to Christ and catch up with my Sabbath School lesson quarterly and head to bed.  I have to be up early tomorrow as I’m going to start my morning walk with Sandra again.

Good night folks! My boyfriend is busy washing his clothes so good night to him too.

Ooopps, by the way, I’m staying for another few months here–to his disappointment.:-( But may the Lord continue to bless us.  Love you all!

Single and Happy!

Yep, that’s me…

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Lately, I realized how alone and single I am. Breaking up with someone you love is definitely painful. But, life goes on. Now, I learned to love myself more. There are moments I felt numb and dumb. Is this what I really want for myself? To seclude myself from all people and try to live life alone? Well, honestly, I am confused too. I just pray that God will fill the longing inside my heart.

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